It occurred to me, during the meditative scrubbing, that it would have never gotten a good scrubbing unless the messiness called out to me.
Sorta like my life.
Often I ignore symptoms until they are messy. Ignore the alarm until I'm too dirty.
That's why we take it to Jesus every day.
Tell Him every day what's going on inside our complicated minds and souls.
Lay it at His feet everyday.
Confess that messiness daily.
We are messy people, and letting messy go too long makes us unusable.
I don't like a messy house. But keeping up with it is impossible with five children.
So I let a lot go.....trust Him. Ask Him what I would do.
So the messiness allows me to turn to Him.
Messiness is vulnerable.
It tells others: I am needy. I am not perfect. I am confused.
I am in need of a Savior.
Messiness is uncomfortable.
Don't you want life tied up in neat boxes? Checked that one off the list. Move on. Nope. Messiness is not like that.
Messiness is dirty.
Messiness says "I'm dirty." I'm not worthy without Him. I need Him to make things right.
I confess that I'm "messy". I'm not perfect. I have insecurities. I have misunderstandings. I'm dirty.
I need a Savior.
I prefer messy.