Funny enough, my two oldest are my most quietest children. My second oldest is my peacemaker. The two older ones left at home are my loudest, and then you have the baby.
When I found out I was unexpectedly pregnant with my fifth child, I asked God, "how can I do this? I already feel overwhelmed, I can't do more children."And as He is, He was gracious to me and gave me the grace I needed in the situation. One year ago today my baby boy was born and as they say: "I can't imagine my life without him."
Funny thing is, God puts people in your life for a reason. If you ask Him to take them away from you, and He doesn't, then you have to accept His will in that situation. (By no means did I ever ask God to take my baby away from me. I just had to pray to accept the pregnancy--just to be clear!!!) Romans 8:28 says: "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
In this we find comfort. That annoying person at work you see everyday? God works for good.
That friend you just don't understand but God keeps saying--"love them"? God works for good.
That child who challenges you? God works for good.
Not having my oldest here, I miss the extra set of hands to help me with laundry, to clean the kitchen, to ask in her sweet voice, "Mom, do you need help?".
Not having my second oldest here, I see what a peacemaker she is with her siblings, as well as I miss the peace her presence brings to our home.
So, while some of the burden is lifted, I can see how God works for good every single person in my family, every single child I have been blessed with, every single person in my life.
And I will give thanks.
photo by Blue Lily