I had to keep the baby up so my husband could get to see him for a few minutes before he went to bed. But he was ready for bed. And I was ready for him to go to bed. Have you ever tried keeping a whiny, tired baby up? Yeah. You know.
I raised my voice to the kids. Okay, I confess. I hollered at them. "Come inside!" "Go wash your hands!" "Now!!!" If they weren't listening to me talk sweet then I was a-raisin' my voice. All my pent up anger of the day and the frustration of the night came out in those few words. It feels good...momentarily.
When my husband came home 15 minutes late (and 15 minutes seems like an eternity when dinner's waitin' and you've got a baby on your hip) and said, "you all start without me, I will put the baby to bed"--well, I decided I'd best holler at him, too.
When dinner was done, and I had a few moments to myself to reflect on my behavior, and sigh, and wonder if I'll ever get it right, the words I once read at Elizabeth Foss came to me:
"Faithful Christians Begin Again."
That is what we do.
We start. We stop. We fail. We try again. We fail again. But we always Begin Again.
It's like the way I try to parent my children. Through Biblical Parenting I have learned a technique where I allow my children a sort of "time out" to think about their wrong behavior. They have to tell me what they did wrong. I ask, "what should you have done?" They tell me. And then, the crucial part is looking them kindly in the eye and saying, "well...let's try again! I know you can do it!"(Taking a break and Positive Conclusion)
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So, I began again.
I went to each child and my husband and apologized for my behavior. I asked for forgiveness. I gave myself some grace. I took a deep breath. I began again.
Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you. ~Philippians 4:9